Good & Bad Days

 Sometimes the way I "feel" can be a bit mind boggling for me to fully comprehend. I have specialists and doctors telling me that it's all apart of the mending process. However, it's a bit unnerving when one day I can feel perfectly fine... (that includes: being able to speak without any stuttering whatsoever, and being able to type full and coherent sentences without taking longer than an hour to convey what I'm actually trying to say.) But then there are some days, like today, where I find it difficult to simply type out a word that I can very clearly see in my head. I know what I want to say, but I constantly have to reread my sentences because I have a tendency of repeating or losing track of what I was initially trying to say from the get-go.

By all means, I am not sitting here complaining or asking for sympathy. I just find it to be slightly relieving to actually type out the jumbled mess that often takes place in my head.

At the same time, I also want people who are going through similar situations to understand that it's okay to have good and bad days. I know its frustrating and knocks down regained confidence, but just know that this is "normal."
Not only am I reaching out to those who are/or have dealt with this type of recovery process-- I am also trying to express what it's like for those who haven't had anything similar happen to them. To be perfectly honest, I was pretty ignorant to the idea of wearing a helmet simply because I thought I had the power to protect myself. It wasn't because I felt silly wearing one, or because I couldn't be bothered.. I just never could imagine myself in this type of situation. It's a bit surreal. You can witness an accident, or hear a story about some sort of tragedy.. and in that moment you either think to yourself, "Wow, I need to be more careful." or, "That will never happen to me."

When I would hear about horse related accidents and how a helmet saved someone's life.. I remember thinking, "Well, gee. I should get on board with that." Somehow along the way, I just never followed through with it. I'd like to remind people that just because you may be an excellent rider or have a completely trained horse- always expect the unexpected and be safe over being incautious and assuming everything will be O.K because it's you.